Am I a Selfish Little Clod?

A wife writes to her imprisoned husband, Christopher Love, a 17th-century Puritan martyr with powerful and heavenly-minded words as he awaits execution for false charges while demonstrating unshakeable faith.  She beseeches him not to be overly concerned for herself or their numerous children.  Rather, she reminds him of the incomparable riches of glory that await him and urges him to look ahead. 

“Thy Maker will be my husband, and a Father to thy children.  O that the Lord would keep thee from having one troubled thought for thy relations. I desire freely to give thee up into thy Father’s hands, and not only look upon it as a crown of glory for thee to die for Christ, but as an honor to me that I should have a husband to leave for Christ… Thou leavest but a sinful, mortal wife to be everlastingly married to the Lord of glory… Thou leavest friends on earth to go to the enjoyment of saints and angels, and the spirits of just men made perfect in glory…If natural affections should begin to arise, I hope that spirit of grace that is within thee will quell then, knowing that all things here below are but dung and dross in comparison of those things that are above.” ~ Mary Love

The rest of the letter demonstrates an amazing trust in the good and wise God who decreed that this ‘little stroke’ should separate them earlier than they might have expected.  Reading passages like these make my heart cry out, “What has changed?  Where is faith like this now?  Lord, grant me even a small fraction of this kind of faith!”

I’m reminded of a quote I read earlier of those who live life with a heavenly mindset and those who fuss and fidget away every precious earthly moment:

“This is true joy in life, the being used up for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a  feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.” ~ George Bernard Shaw (quoted in Crazy Love by Francis Chan)

Lord, please help me live in light of eternity.


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